I self-reflect

And I gaze deep

To try to forget the secrets that I keep

I bind myself

And hide my chest

All day long until I rest

I stay at home

And lay in bed

Trying to drown out what you said

You said to me

I’ll never be

And thusly never will I be free

I deconstruct

And turn my face

Towards the darker, other place

I cry alone

And I must confess

It’s how I am that makes me feel less

I curse myself

And wonder if I can

Ever truly live my life as a man

But they said to me

I’ll never be

And thusly never will I be free

I wonder why

And ponder yesterday

At what I could have done to make it go away

I think to me

And question how

I could live within this town

For you said to me

I’ll never be

And thusly never will I be free

I find myself

Within the pain

And realize I can’t change yesterday

I reconstruct

And build anew

From the tired ruins of me and you

I gaze upon

And hold me close

For I am more powerful than I may know

And I say to me

I am proud to be

And within this I will break free