Inspired by Mary Cassatt’s “The Coiffure”
Each morning softly intertwined
Stitched to linen bed sheets
You run hot at night so sweat sticks to your sternum
Oaken kiss to bare heel
Stumble silently to the bathroom.
Silently
Softly
Smoothly
You won’t wake anyone
not the way he does when he’s up before the crack of dawn
dropping the pan as he cooks his egg and dirtying your stove and
hacking his lungs out and leaving a mess in your kitchen for you to
clean
Silently
Softly
Smoothly
Without complaint.
You swallow your rising resentment — it’s too early for this rage — and face your reflection
It’s hellish, you know
But you feel beautiful somehow with your puffy eyes, your swollen nose and lips, your hair that sticks up every which way
Your hair.
It will be the last thing that you touch after you’ve brushed your teeth and washed your face and powdered your blemished skin
You’ll slip off your shirt and crack your knuckles and reach your tired arms up to an unkempt mane
This labor of love is labor indeed
as your arms will grow sore in seconds and your neck will hurt from being bent at such an angle and your teeth will clack against the bobby pins you’ve shoved between them
You’ll put pins in
That side
This side
Underneath that lock
And you’ll sigh at each lump and stray strand and
Maybe you will never be satisfied but
This time is yours
And yours alone
And that’s enough.