I miss you, the girl who cried during Dumbo
Who sobbed just because someone else was
I miss you, the girl who giggled when she got tucked in at night
Who begged to be read to
Skipped when she was happy
Stomped when she was sad
I miss you and I have no right to

I killed her
Years were my weapon
Maturity my disguise
I killed her 

Because she was beautiful and I was blind
She was bright and happy and perfect
And I
Raced ahead prizing only the phrase
All grown up
And now
She’s dead and I killed her and I miss you
And I have no right to
She was so excited so proud so ready
For me
And the future I would bring
So I came and I took and I took
And you gave
And now you’re gone
And
All that’s left is me
A girl who’s nothing
Nothing like you but in face 

I’m crying
and that makes me happy 
happy because it’s what you would do
You and your easy tears 
Your sweet face that gave your every feeling away 
I’m crying 
And thinking of you