leave your house for a while,
traipse around and think that
you’d rather be at home.
remind yourself the world has meaning
even though
you don't believe it.
work tirelessly,
rest after it’s too late.
note that privilege comes with guilt
feel guilty
for thinking that.
talk to people, even if
it makes you sick to your stomach.
order yourself to trust,
despite the fact you know you never will.
be consoled by your accomplishments,
never feel like you earned them.
look at the stars and
feel comforted by
your own insignificance.
stress to yourself perfection is a myth,
berate yourself for not being perfect.
wake up and
compel yourself to face the world,
however unalluring it is.
