we sink
& choke on our own want
& decide it’s enough
& pull down our own quiet
& swim in swallowed songs
& follow our own wounds home
& peel back our skin
& look at the mess we’ve made
& love all things but not at the same time

My head tends to spin

Because I’m on the outside looking in

My heart starts to yearn

The secrets of friendship I wish to learn

I want to be inside

And to be filled with pride

I can imagine myself in there

Look at her,

I look at myself.

I see him,

I see myself.

I find what I want...

It’s not an option.

Stare into these eyes of flame

Warm embrace of blazing love

Wild animal you cannot tame

Feral beauty of gentle dove

Gaze into these eyes of fire

Scorching heat of kindled lust

Burning secret of past desire